I never used to get carsick. First night I ran papers for my new means, I got carsick. Not just a little bit either. But, full on chunks right out the window. Gross right? Sorry for such an introduction

I think my first reaction, is how could this be? I’ve never ever had this problem before?

Second reaction. I gotta lay down and get out of this horrendous lurching vehicle.

Third thought, what can I do to calm my stomach if this is to be the norm? After all, a job is a means at the moment and i’d really like to give this an honest effort.

So I asked around and it was recommended to me to use peppermint. So, I bought a bunch of those starlight mints at a gas station for 2/$3 and went out the next night. Nothing. Felt urpy but was not blowing chunks or even near the limits. Cool, found something that works. Learned in other conversations as well that food in ones stomach seems to settle the urge too. Ok, two options and workable solutions. I’m in.

Lately there has been conflicting schedules. Wife works at 6 am and I’m still running papers on occasion at 6. Rather than get a babysitter, we just load them into the vehicle and they get to run the route with me. Well, twice we have done this anyway. Last week, one boy refused to eat breakfast or mints and horfed all over the new(to us) van and floor and seats. This week, same thing but both boys.

It kind of pissed me off because I handed them bags to puke into. Now, I don’t always have time to find a bucket or something either but dangit, its frustrating. So, the whole rest of the route we had to smell nasty, disgusting vomit before I could clean it up. Ewwww.

I had no reason to be pissed. I know that. But, things don’t always work as our head logic and our heart emotion war. I’ve been tired (no excuse), I’ve been struggling (no excuse), things keep breaking(no excuse), bills are overdue (no excuse), children being petty, selfish and whiny (no excuse). But, I became pissy. Mostly because I had to finish my route and it saddened me greatly that I had to put kids in a position to get sick. Mostly frustrated by the fact that they had eaten, I had given them peppermints and bags in case they needed them. It also could have been that for once, I would like to have a vehicle without stains or French fries on the seat or under it. I know all these things contribute on a daily basis to our stress levels, but I take full responsibility.

Funny thing was as soon as I got pissed and beat my newspapers on the steering wheel and screamed, not at the children, but the situation. I noticed one of my customers standing and watching me. changed my attitude real quick. the situation hadn’t changed just my view of it.

I learned something about myself in this moment. that it truly is embarrassing to be caught with ones proverbial pants down. Also, that resale value is not more important than lifelong character and restraint. there is a proper time to vent anger. That is made clear on a religious front by Jesus, “tossing them temple tables”. in the words of DC talk anyway.

SO, thanks to that man for changing my thinking in a sudden hurry. I would have stayed mad all day and grouchy. Instead, I realized once again (as almost daily) that my duty as a parent comes also with responsibility to clean up puke. Even if it disgusts me or leaves a stain. They are more important.

Grateful daily. Grateful that life always seems to find ways to renew our focus. Whether it is from someone watching or some random event, we are diverted at times most important. Trouble lies if we keep trying to refocus on the trouble causing event vs the intrusion that happened right in the middle of it.

What about you? What steps have you taken to not show the cumulative effects of stress as a parent? i’m all ears. or, eyes rather.

Blessings come.

All at once

Or nothing at all.  Feast or famine.  Waiting for full or running till empty.  I’m quite used to both.  I would like to post my opinion (for what its worth) on the whole death penalty at this time in America.

I’m against it.

That’s the starter to the argument im about to present.

First though, I would love to present to you the fact that I used to be for it.  Totally for it.  I thought it would save taxes (which it would after the appeals process), I thought it would make criminals less likely to want to wind up that way, also as a way to keep society in line.  So, yes, I used to be for it.

A couple of things changed my mind.

1. I can’t think of too many people in America in a government position that has morals enough to carry this out with good conscience for their own soul.

2. Upon reading more into the Bible, I’ve been trying to study if there ever was a death penalty?  I haven’t found one.  If there is, I am well open to discussion and searching into it. Moses, David, Elijah and Paul were all guilty of murder.

So, if the death penalty was practiced, chances are it didn’t apply to them.  That puts us on in a weird little spiritual spot.  The spot that says the God taught through the Bible and in real life picks and chooses with favor to individual.  I’m not real sure that is the case.  We are told repeatedly to not esteem one higher than another.  We are all equal and all that goes with it.

Well, if Moses and Paul (who had a hand in a multitude of murders and murderous parties, were not treated to a chair of electricity or a lethal needle, why?

The only plausible answer I could see is that God knew the ends better than humans and He wanted to show grace and mercy.


3.  This government should not have power to take its citizens lives.  Period and end of story.  I could get behind it a lot more with strong leaders who in good conscience would not have celebrated justice with cheering but been saddened by it immensely.  So, i’d just really rather not give rise to hand my life or anyone’s life over to a less than trustworthy batch of bloodthirsties.

4.  What is it going to solve?  its society that is the problem right now and our penal system reflects that.  So how do we fix society?  there are steps we could take.  Less dependence on a government for their well being and day to day living, for starters.  There are many and i’m not bright enough to engage more in those lofty matters.

5.  it feels wrong.  If a federal government overrides the will of its sovereign states, it makes me question why.  Why do they want to make an example of this one and not many others?

6. What about abortion, can we oppose abortion and support the death penalty or is that too much of a hypocrisy?

The abortion thing tripped me up for a long time because I knew people who had done it and I didn’t want to throw them under the bus.  But, that’s not up to me.  it feels wrong. All lives matter.  American, Canadian, European, Asian… police, paupers, ceo’s…

that’s all I got.  What is your take.  You for it against it or neutral like Switzerland?

Lets discuss at least like rational beings with morals regardless of belief system.

Why hemp is illegal

A lot of great thought provoking things contained here at this url. I hope you take the time and read it. I again, encourage you to make up your own mind. I am not saying we all need to get high. I am saying people should have that freedom. So, if after reading, you wanna debate? Place your comments below and we can have a respectful dialogue. Looking forward to hearing from you all!

What a pothead knows

If, you have ever been around pot smokers for awhile you begin to notice certain things, they generally, have in common. The rest of us could learn from these things.

1. They share. They light a bowl, pass it around and enjoy a high together. When was the last time you enjoyed a religious high with someone? It’s been awhile for me as well. Most of us are afraid to eat after another human has touched it. Pot smokers are not. They put their lips right up to the bong and puff that sucker! They share fire and nature. Man has been doing that for longer than we have tried to stop people from it.

2. They are peaceful. Most anyway. Some are just dicks no matter what they do. But, on the whole, they have a bigger percentage of people who practice nonviolence than most Christians I know. To clarify, they will stand up for themselves with guns or whatever if threatened but mostly, they want to be left alone. Whereas, some certain overzealous Christians started the Crusades over their beliefs. I’m just stating that we are not practicing God’s love for all His children if we are antagonistic one to another. Not this, let me smack you with the Bible till you feel so threatened you have no choice but to join. That is not what it is all about. If a pot head asks you to smoke and you decline, it is all good. (generally). If they don’t trust you they will not smoke around you.

3. They are hungry. They seek what they want. To some, it is considered laziness. Others consider their entire lives spent searching for their next high is downright disgraceful. I, on the other hand, think more Christians ought to be going around searching for the Lord in the same manner. Not this, oh gee well I hope maybe God comes through for me. To go out and stand firm on the promises of God.

4. They are creative! They need a way to mix fire and air and a naturally growing plant and have no access. The common man would say eff it and give up. These people tend to find a way. How many of us want God’s help in some way? We sit around we pray and then it doesn’t happen? Potheads make it happen. We could use more people like that. They start mixing duct tape and gas masks and whatever else is at their disposal to make their goal a reality. I love that about them! Christians? Not so much. (generally). We get stuck on something and we see a few items over here and there but we don’t actively engage our brains to come up with the solution hiding right below the surface.

5. They are able to deal with anxiety and morality better than most. Ok, hang with me here. To uphold the law is good but sometimes, laws must needs to be broken. These guys are willing to break the law to live to the fullest life possible. Moses’ parents broke the law in the Bible. Yeah, how many of us would have shipped that little baby up the river in a barrel? Paul, broke the law. Read any of his scriptures and there he was, resting in a jail cell somewhere for doing what he thought right!!! Christians? Not many. Jesus was famous for breaking the law!! Healing on the Sabbath, forgiving sinners, eating and working on the Sabbath… I encourage you to read even a little closer to us in history. The underground railroad. Those people risked death for freedom. Which one was doing right? No brainer for you as well? good! What about Rosa Parks sitting on that bus? She knew she was in the wrong but doing right!!!! What about all the people who have sat down peacefully at segregated restaraunts? Yeah, they did the right thing even though it was considered wrong.

6. They are great to be around. Not when they are sober but most pot smokers go off in their own little world sober. They come together in groups to get stoned. We should practice that! To go get filled by the Holy Ghost as a group and then go do our own duties throughout the week!

7. Artistic. God is an artist. He is not a consumer as most people are referred to nowadays. I too, am a producer, not a consumer. I create things. Maybe things only cool to me, but I love that feeling of creation! More Christians could learn to do this and we would have a changed world.

So, tomorrow, I may continue this legalizing pot thing. I hope to not have offended any of you, but if I have, I leave the comments open for respectful public discourse. If, you want to get nasty about it? I will not keep your thought up here. I’m not advocating that people smoke pot. I just want it legal so people can if they want. Peace!

The path

I journey up the mountain trying to find peace of mind
I wander through the desert of spiritual decline
Or what I used to think that meant
Now, it just feels like Job, represent
Fleeting and simple, so colorful and true
religion isn’t the rules, it is you being you
find what you were created uniquely for
Then go serve others or help out the poor

Reward and relief, I speak with the trees
seeking the fat guy, or Buddha to those who also do seek
But, that dude ate too many pizzas, has too many thumbs
I’m not sure, that end is what I really, really want
So, go be creative and swallow your truth
Life is not disappointed at you being you
Go and become one with your dreams and be free
God doesn’t want you to wither or wheeze

spinsters and solemn, undressing the fallen
soldiers and sinners, reckless and appalling
Change is the new way to the “goals”
I prefer to shun that way and go it alone
faith in nothing seems like a brilliant idea for the atheists
till the end comes and they realize that there might be more than there is
So, a cuss word, a promise, a strict, lasting vow
Seems to be where i’m dwelling now, no doubt, look around


Long time ago, we were not controlled by greedy corporations, in a galaxy far, far, away.

Long time ago, everyone had a gun for protection.

Long ago, We had a choice between good and evil and knew the boundaries of both.

Now? Not so much.

People scream to the police to help because of an attack instead of being prepared themselves. People have forgotten more, in this age of information, than the previous generations had learned.

British rule was not very oppressive back before the Colonies banded together. Certainly not as oppressive as our current “regime” I mean, er, um, government.

In walks the TSA, NSA, DHS, DNR, IRS, CIA… etc.

I’m kind of on a rant here, so bear with me or leave. You got a problem with the country? Leave. You have an issue that offended you, get the heck over it.

It upsets me that the average citizen of America does not possess the wherewithal to go investigate for themselves and find truth. Now, they just expect to comply with all government officials, be felt up by the TSA, have no freedom and have to be spied on.

I’m not saying go be disobedient. I’m saying, go find truth.

We all want safety and security and we also want freedom. SO, the question is which one is more important. I tip my hat towards freedom. Any day, any situation.

“Give me liberty or give me death.” Much like the Israelites and their triumph out of Egypt oppression.

America has produced filth, dropped the worlds standards and caused so much evil in the few hundred years we’ve been banded together, one nation, (used to be) under God…

I was once asked (shortly after the Newtown shooting) what I would do if my kid was caught up in that and died. I responded, I would mourn their loss and try to pick up the pieces. I wouldn’t try to take peoples right to bear arms away or need to spy on them. I would pray the Lord opens up His gates for them and comfort my wife and I. I have no control over that. Nor, do I want control over that.

But again, I have much freedom. I am still (as of yet) able to say and speak what is on my mind. I have the right to bear arms, free speech and to choose which religion best suits me.

It is a buffet line of choices nowadays! You got this religion here that practices part Bible, part zen, part Hindu. This religion over there that practices maniacal fanaticism. That society teaching its ok to kill the innocent.

So, enough of the problems plaguing America which in turn plague the world. How about some solutions?

Lets go back to the Constitution for one. Lets strengthen the schools and teach people to find their own truth. Lets decrease the laws of the land. Lets just have covenants. Lets give everyone firearms training like Switzerland. Lets make natural drugs legal and provide assistance to those too wrapped up in them to live. Let’s grow hemp and use God’s replenishing bounty for our needs. Lets stop growing wasteful corn. Lets stop Nascar. Waste of money, tires, fuel…etc. I say that one partially joking tongue in cheek!

Let’s go back to making people apprentice under someone for a career and livelihood. Let’s make less trashy movies and scantily clad women or pictures available. Lets fire Congress and the President, and start over. Let’s make our government officials volunteer, lets stop taxes! Let’s live again! Rant is over, enjoy your day.


The crane! Look boss, De Crane, De Crane!

A very cool machine indeed! It makes light work of heavy things and makes construction so much easier. It gives humans reach, it gives humans power and other bennies (benefits).

Few things to remember about a crane are; make sure the operator sees you and knows where you are, if there is two hooks, hold them together until they are out of reach for safety sake, respect the man who is operating it, even if, he is a jerk. He knows things and makes your life easier.

Much like life, we should find those things that are a help to us and not a hindrance. We should seek, we should ask, we should stay diligent in our matters of curiosity to seek truth.

What is your crane?

For some, it is spirituality, some knowledge, some money, some it’s power, some it’s sex, but what, is yours? What helps you out?