I never used to get carsick. First night I ran papers for my new means, I got carsick. Not just a little bit either. But, full on chunks right out the window. Gross right? Sorry for such an introduction

I think my first reaction, is how could this be? I’ve never ever had this problem before?

Second reaction. I gotta lay down and get out of this horrendous lurching vehicle.

Third thought, what can I do to calm my stomach if this is to be the norm? After all, a job is a means at the moment and i’d really like to give this an honest effort.

So I asked around and it was recommended to me to use peppermint. So, I bought a bunch of those starlight mints at a gas station for 2/$3 and went out the next night. Nothing. Felt urpy but was not blowing chunks or even near the limits. Cool, found something that works. Learned in other conversations as well that food in ones stomach seems to settle the urge too. Ok, two options and workable solutions. I’m in.

Lately there has been conflicting schedules. Wife works at 6 am and I’m still running papers on occasion at 6. Rather than get a babysitter, we just load them into the vehicle and they get to run the route with me. Well, twice we have done this anyway. Last week, one boy refused to eat breakfast or mints and horfed all over the new(to us) van and floor and seats. This week, same thing but both boys.

It kind of pissed me off because I handed them bags to puke into. Now, I don’t always have time to find a bucket or something either but dangit, its frustrating. So, the whole rest of the route we had to smell nasty, disgusting vomit before I could clean it up. Ewwww.

I had no reason to be pissed. I know that. But, things don’t always work as our head logic and our heart emotion war. I’ve been tired (no excuse), I’ve been struggling (no excuse), things keep breaking(no excuse), bills are overdue (no excuse), children being petty, selfish and whiny (no excuse). But, I became pissy. Mostly because I had to finish my route and it saddened me greatly that I had to put kids in a position to get sick. Mostly frustrated by the fact that they had eaten, I had given them peppermints and bags in case they needed them. It also could have been that for once, I would like to have a vehicle without stains or French fries on the seat or under it. I know all these things contribute on a daily basis to our stress levels, but I take full responsibility.

Funny thing was as soon as I got pissed and beat my newspapers on the steering wheel and screamed, not at the children, but the situation. I noticed one of my customers standing and watching me. changed my attitude real quick. the situation hadn’t changed just my view of it.

I learned something about myself in this moment. that it truly is embarrassing to be caught with ones proverbial pants down. Also, that resale value is not more important than lifelong character and restraint. there is a proper time to vent anger. That is made clear on a religious front by Jesus, “tossing them temple tables”. in the words of DC talk anyway.

SO, thanks to that man for changing my thinking in a sudden hurry. I would have stayed mad all day and grouchy. Instead, I realized once again (as almost daily) that my duty as a parent comes also with responsibility to clean up puke. Even if it disgusts me or leaves a stain. They are more important.

Grateful daily. Grateful that life always seems to find ways to renew our focus. Whether it is from someone watching or some random event, we are diverted at times most important. Trouble lies if we keep trying to refocus on the trouble causing event vs the intrusion that happened right in the middle of it.

What about you? What steps have you taken to not show the cumulative effects of stress as a parent? i’m all ears. or, eyes rather.

Blessings come.


All at once

Or nothing at all.  Feast or famine.  Waiting for full or running till empty.  I’m quite used to both.  I would like to post my opinion (for what its worth) on the whole death penalty at this time in America.

I’m against it.

That’s the starter to the argument im about to present.

First though, I would love to present to you the fact that I used to be for it.  Totally for it.  I thought it would save taxes (which it would after the appeals process), I thought it would make criminals less likely to want to wind up that way, also as a way to keep society in line.  So, yes, I used to be for it.

A couple of things changed my mind.

1. I can’t think of too many people in America in a government position that has morals enough to carry this out with good conscience for their own soul.

2. Upon reading more into the Bible, I’ve been trying to study if there ever was a death penalty?  I haven’t found one.  If there is, I am well open to discussion and searching into it. Moses, David, Elijah and Paul were all guilty of murder.

So, if the death penalty was practiced, chances are it didn’t apply to them.  That puts us on in a weird little spiritual spot.  The spot that says the God taught through the Bible and in real life picks and chooses with favor to individual.  I’m not real sure that is the case.  We are told repeatedly to not esteem one higher than another.  We are all equal and all that goes with it.

Well, if Moses and Paul (who had a hand in a multitude of murders and murderous parties, were not treated to a chair of electricity or a lethal needle, why?

The only plausible answer I could see is that God knew the ends better than humans and He wanted to show grace and mercy.


3.  This government should not have power to take its citizens lives.  Period and end of story.  I could get behind it a lot more with strong leaders who in good conscience would not have celebrated justice with cheering but been saddened by it immensely.  So, i’d just really rather not give rise to hand my life or anyone’s life over to a less than trustworthy batch of bloodthirsties.

4.  What is it going to solve?  its society that is the problem right now and our penal system reflects that.  So how do we fix society?  there are steps we could take.  Less dependence on a government for their well being and day to day living, for starters.  There are many and i’m not bright enough to engage more in those lofty matters.

5.  it feels wrong.  If a federal government overrides the will of its sovereign states, it makes me question why.  Why do they want to make an example of this one and not many others?

6. What about abortion, can we oppose abortion and support the death penalty or is that too much of a hypocrisy?

The abortion thing tripped me up for a long time because I knew people who had done it and I didn’t want to throw them under the bus.  But, that’s not up to me.  it feels wrong. All lives matter.  American, Canadian, European, Asian… police, paupers, ceo’s…

that’s all I got.  What is your take.  You for it against it or neutral like Switzerland?

Lets discuss at least like rational beings with morals regardless of belief system.


I have a feeling

That I lost most of you who once upon a time who followed me.  The inactivity, the lack of follow through and the path I seemed to want to lead my good friends (you) on.  So apologies are needed.  I realized much after the fact that I might want to push marijuana to be legalized but most of my wonderful readership did not.

I’m not wanting to be that guy or person that wants to use their platform to promote change contrary to readership.

So, please allow me a start over.

I no longer butcher.

I haven’t done construction in some time.

I’m kind of a fake according to what I’ve reread about the writings here.

So, here is the fake parts.  I try hard daily to be a model Christian but I fail often.  I cuss, drink, smoke weed every once in a great while and I don’t forgive as easily as I should.  I hold grudges and hurts and pains close to me for artillery later.  I have been on public aid and battled cockroaches in my home.

Here is the real.  I have a love of writing.  I got 150 people (you the reader once again) to become interested in something very uninteresting.

I’d like to regain your trust at some point.  So, this is me, reintroducing myself to you.

Hello, my name is Nathan Schubick aka Shoobey and I plan on keeping butcheringsaint as my outlet for the purely religious things i’d like to dissect with you awesome peoples.  For things not generally pertaining to but hinting at a strong belief, shoobey.com is open now and getting warmed up.



Finally, got my own website that im moving stuff to and making cozy.  This blog, butcheringsaint has been moved and im looking forward to seeing your faces there as well.  Om working on a podcast recently. Titled, hey paperboy, that i hope youll enjoy.  Fair warning there is some cuss words mostly because im being very real and authentic and no longer hiding who i am just to fit in.  Peace and love, yall


New tunes and audiobook!

Normally, I have been just posting to let you know what I’m up to.  I know its not always about me, so I hope you forgive me.  I am an excitable person and get amped up.  So, when I’m promoting something, I forget that no one cares (yet) and that I have been a bit selfish.  So, I’m going to promote myself but after I have promoted some very cool things that have caught my attention lately.

http://lewisknudsen.com/  I have been hearing about this guy for a little while but until Friday night, I did not have his cd.  That thing has not left my cd player yet.  Really cool stuff happening within his music.  Personal Faves are “I don’t have anything to hide,”  “I want to spend all my love on you.”  The rest are sweet as well.

http://www.nightwatchmanmusic.com/ This is Tom Morello’s solo thing.  I bought the cd years ago listened to each track for about 4 seconds and pitched it in the pile.  Years later, the wife and I were on a drive and I had been pulling cd’s out in quick succession on the search for edible goodness.  WHY MUST THE RADIO SUCK NOWADAYS?  But, story cut short, we both listened to that whole album and were both blown away.  I took it home and then started it again and again.  The whole thing is way cool to devour.

http://tascam.com/product/dp-006/ This thing has been so good to me for recording, thinking out loud, mixing and mastering.  If anyone needs help figuring it out, it is super simple and quite easy to operate.  I’ve played on digital recorders before that were so darned technical, it took years to figure out.  This little machine is not that way at all.  IF you play music or record things, this is the way to go.  Very cool product.


http://www.rivermusicexperience.org/ This place is just so awesome, I don’t know where to begin.  The wife and I have played there a bunch, the people are super sweet, the stage is well done, the vibe is off the hook.  It is one of my coolest venues in eastern iowa!  Check them out and their mission, it is something every city capable should be doing with the arts and music and spreading the fun to everyone!

Ok, self promo time, here is where you can find a hodgepodge of music scattered over the interwebs!

http://www.noisetrade.com/hatchetflower with 2 recordings and the very early hatchetflower stuff from 2003

http://www.reverbnation.com/hatchetflower2  This spot there is three recordings up from our upcoming album.  Go, listen and enjoy.  Spread the word if it is cool enough to suit you.

http://www.hatchetflower.bandcamp.com where we have one song titled Tribal, since posting we have changed its name to Mugsy.  There is vocals at around the 8 minute mark so hang in there.

Now, I have to point out.  These songs are spiritual in nature and try to represent something cool and something containing hope.  I realize not everyone wants Christ in their life, so at least substitute that for whatever helps you to get better daily.  I think that is the purpose of life, to get better daily.

Peace all.  Btw, everything was recorded on a Tascam dp 006 except for the 2003 stuff.  I’m not paid for this promo or advertising, I’m just letting you in on what I think is super cool.

Much love.